I found a lump in my breast earlier this year. I was tempted to freak out about it, but somehow, I was able to ‘not go there’ in my mind. That was a big victory for me. I suppose that is what is called ‘take captive our thoughts’ as described in the Bible (2 Corinthians 10:5). Although I have been agreeing with this concept, and practicing for a few years, I was pleasantly surprised that I was able to do it rather quickly and easily in this case. If this had been 5 or 10 years earlier in my life, I believe I would have been terrified and devastated.
I made an appointment to go to the doctor as soon as I was able, which took a few months. I can’t remember clearly at the moment, but I think I had to re-apply for state funded health care for low income families. I am so thankful to be in the US where this is available.
It has been years and years since I had been to the doctor, due to other issues in my life. Going to the doctor again was a little out of my comfort zone by this time, and slightly nerve wracking, but not too bad. And as it turned out, not necessary at all, as the nurse practitioner assigned to me was very kind and gentle.
I was scheduled for a mammogram right away, about a week later. The mammogram practitioner was also so kind and gentle, I appreciated it so much. This was my very first mammogram, and I had heard that they are painful because they squish the breast, so I was a bit apprehensive. But this lady was very gentle and it was not too painful.
They decided to do an ultrasound right then, because they found something in addition to the lump. They found a string of small ‘calcifications’ that apparently often turn into cancer, so they wanted to take a closer look at them.
I was told right then and there that they would be ordering a biopsy for me to check both the lump and the calcifications. A regular biopsy for the lump and a ultrasound guided biopsy for the calcifications.
I had an appointment with a specialist a week later, who was also very nice. She showed me the mammogram pictures and explained to me what was on it. I took my mammogram pictures on disk to the imaging facility that was supposed to call me soon to schedule the biopsies.
I didn’t hear for almost a whole month. I was a little bothered by that, but they finally called and I scheduled the biopsies. But then my husband’s health insurance kicked in from his job. So I canceled the biopsies and started the whole process with my new insurance.
My new insurance is an hmo that we have used in the past and have been happy with. They were very quick with the process. I had a check up first, within days of calling, and another mammogram within a week after that, with a biopsy scheduled during the same appointment.
To be continued.
A big thank you to all the kind and gentle people in the medical field.
For anyone else who has found a lump in your breast, or any signs of possible cancer, may you be able to take captive all negative thoughts and feelings, and may you have NO FEAR as you continue your journey,